Revalation

I'snt it so obvious?
She doesnt give a fuck about you

so quit posting these be damned entries

Past

it was electric, every move was poetry
every whisper was of love
every time i held you closer
we fit so fucking perfectly
there was never an uncomfortable position

only you could hurt me and make me feel loved at the same time

Ravings of a Madman

I once called ten thousand sceaming voices love
Oh wasnt the confusion so wonderful
To lie awake, dreaming and wondering not knowing the path?

I can still feel the toxins in my system, they eat me away

Its a shame i havent had time to play with words to amuse you
but fuck you, this is about me anyway
go get your dose of wordplay masturbation elsewhere

The nights of the plummeting thermometer

Ive gone cold
Cold to the touch
Cold to the outside world, which means anger will soon follow
Spinning in familar concentric circles

I dont care
I dont need anyone
I am that which was built by manifest destiny to survive
dont these lines seem familar?

Relive

My minds going a thousand miles an hour

without chemicals for once

this feels so familar

Addiction

You ever kissed someone and felt nothing

not even the thrill of a kiss, just nothing, as if you were shaking someones hand

Then you wonder, will the rest of my kisses feel this way?

Chem Proc (properly spaced)

Everything is black and white and all its shades of grey.
I have been both absent and present.
And still have no idea what the pathway is
Perhaps this is because there are many paths for the many people
Yet why do you some paths seem so wrong
I know that one cannot have a angel without a deamon
Yet that doesnt allow me to sleep any easier
Is all this rage natural, the fuel to my survial?
We havent evolved at all, just the world we built for ourselves has.
Despite meditation and religion we are all still just animals
And what do animals need of chemicals
Chemicals are part of the world around us that we built when we said we evolved
That doesnt stop me from dreaming about them
But there are chemicals all around us
Our minds, that which we sought enlightenment through is just a fluxing of chemicals
So which path is mine, and which path is my nemesis
There are many reasons why i might partake in this fight
None of them i would consider worthy
Yet i have had many more worthless endevors in my life than worthwhile ones
I assume most people are the same
Im addicted
Addicted to those chemicals in my head
Its much easier to hide, and much more satisfying
I will fight because i am an animal in a suburban cage
As with all caged animals, we have suppressed eons of
Instint
Rage
Love
Respect
only because we do what we are told so we can eat
And yet i have very little to eat
and very few people choose to eat what is given
When i am unleashed, you will see what happens when i am truly human.

Ignorance

Ignorance implies that there is a lack of desire to learn about the subject at hand
Not knowning does not have this detail

This is the difference between two very similar ideas

and yet it is the difference between bliss and pain

Its really rough when you cant make up your mind because your not sure if your even of the proper mental quality to make such decision.

Still miss her, but im pretty sure its all in my head so hopefully that will quiet down soon
Might get locked up , server my time, get some prison ink, make a day of it

pretend i came out alot tougher than when i came in on both counts

Personal Add

All i want is a girl..

I can listen to ska with
Doesnt mind that i act like a child sometimes
Can tolerate my stupid rants
Doesnt mind being sweet talked

damn it, its her again isnt it

All nighter

Well here we go, doesnt this seem all too familar
I smell like shit, its 7 30, and i didnt sleep last night
i wonder when im going to grow up

Chem Proc

Everything is black and white and all its shades of grey.I have been both absent and present.And still have no idea what the pathway isPerhaps this is because there are many paths for the many peopleYet why do you some paths seem so wrongI know that one cannot have a angel without a deamonYet that doesnt allow me to sleep any easierIs all this rage natural, the fuel to my survial?We havent evolved at all, just the world we built for ourselves has.Despite meditation and religionwe are all still just animalsAnd what do animals need of chemicalsChemicals are part of the world around us that we built when we said we evolvedThat doesnt stop me from dreaming about themBut there are chemicals all around usOur minds, that which we sought enlightenment through is just a fluxing of chemicals
So which path is mine, and which path is my nemesis
There are many reasons why i might partake in this fightNone of them i would consider worthyYet i have had many more worthless endevors in my life than worthwhile onesI assume most people are the sameIm addictedAddicted to those chemicals in my headits much easier to hide, and much more satisfying
I will fight because i am an animal in a suburban cageAs with all caged animals, we have suppressed eons ofInstintRageLoveRespectonly because we do what we are told so we can eatAnd yet i have very little to eatand very few people choose to eat what is given
When i am unleashed, you will see what happens when i am truly human.