Freewriting
Freewriting helps to pass the time, alot of things help, but nothing is permantent. But really nothing is permanent in this world anyway.
Fucking misery loves company, haha, Its nice to have someone to talk to who REALLY understands how it feels. No one really knows how it feels, till its happened to you.
Look at me, sounding all emo again, i really hate that i use that word so openly. Im sure they dont like it either, but i hate how you cant really be emotional or show any kind of negative feelings without being emo, or i guess thats just how it works in my head. Or they make you second guess when something is wrong, even if you know that it is, having a bunch of whiney fucking kids running around, crying about real problems they dont have...i dont know, i should get off this subject, im not making any sense.
Half the people i tell i want to stop drinking just laugh, it is kinda funny, ive been the biggest advocate for alcohol for as long as i can remeber it first touched my lips. And now its to the point where I dont want cocaine, i dont want booze, what the fuck happened to Travis a year ago.
What happened the past two years?
Timmys taking a break from drinking too, that makes it so much easier, he always knew how to make me take another sip when i knew it was time to go. This shit is pie
I like it when customers come in pissed, thinking they are gonna tell us off and whatnot, and we just wreck them with kindness. Wrecking someone with kindness is almost as much fun as wrecking them with a peice of rebar....almost.
As much as ive conquered my fears, im still worried about time. I mean its like as if at any moment i could go have to serve time, or get smashed up in a car wreck or whatever and i just have so much incomplete right now, it would suck. Of course this is an ever present problem, i dont know why its bugging me so much right now. Probably with my luck Mindy will says shes ready to date the day before i get setenced, oi, i wonder if i can get clemency for that.
Its all good though, i reread over this stuff and think, damn what a depressing tone, but honestly its written with the utmost optimism.
Fucking misery loves company, haha, Its nice to have someone to talk to who REALLY understands how it feels. No one really knows how it feels, till its happened to you.
Look at me, sounding all emo again, i really hate that i use that word so openly. Im sure they dont like it either, but i hate how you cant really be emotional or show any kind of negative feelings without being emo, or i guess thats just how it works in my head. Or they make you second guess when something is wrong, even if you know that it is, having a bunch of whiney fucking kids running around, crying about real problems they dont have...i dont know, i should get off this subject, im not making any sense.
Half the people i tell i want to stop drinking just laugh, it is kinda funny, ive been the biggest advocate for alcohol for as long as i can remeber it first touched my lips. And now its to the point where I dont want cocaine, i dont want booze, what the fuck happened to Travis a year ago.
What happened the past two years?
Timmys taking a break from drinking too, that makes it so much easier, he always knew how to make me take another sip when i knew it was time to go. This shit is pie
I like it when customers come in pissed, thinking they are gonna tell us off and whatnot, and we just wreck them with kindness. Wrecking someone with kindness is almost as much fun as wrecking them with a peice of rebar....almost.
As much as ive conquered my fears, im still worried about time. I mean its like as if at any moment i could go have to serve time, or get smashed up in a car wreck or whatever and i just have so much incomplete right now, it would suck. Of course this is an ever present problem, i dont know why its bugging me so much right now. Probably with my luck Mindy will says shes ready to date the day before i get setenced, oi, i wonder if i can get clemency for that.
Its all good though, i reread over this stuff and think, damn what a depressing tone, but honestly its written with the utmost optimism.
posted by Scruffy at 11:41 AM
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