Therapy
Havent had a whole lot of time to update this thing, added a new class so im at school till 9 every night now and work has been fucking crazy, this is the first morning i havent been swamped with work for like two weeks.
Started therapy, which i was highly skeptical about at first, but i think i really do need it. Its not so much therapy as it is drug and alcohol conseling. The goal of course, not being to stop, which is already done, but stay off, and not do my sterotypical go 6-8 months clean only to have a little "vacation" that ends in on again off again use.
Im being so damn productive now its almost sickening to myself, or what would be the part of myself that still wants to be destructive and counter-productive, at some moments i feel almost downright two-faced, like i can almost hear the seperate voices and ideals arguing in my head. Because at the same time, i love being this productive, and clean, and steadily growing more pretentious.
Started therapy, which i was highly skeptical about at first, but i think i really do need it. Its not so much therapy as it is drug and alcohol conseling. The goal of course, not being to stop, which is already done, but stay off, and not do my sterotypical go 6-8 months clean only to have a little "vacation" that ends in on again off again use.
Im being so damn productive now its almost sickening to myself, or what would be the part of myself that still wants to be destructive and counter-productive, at some moments i feel almost downright two-faced, like i can almost hear the seperate voices and ideals arguing in my head. Because at the same time, i love being this productive, and clean, and steadily growing more pretentious.
posted by Scruffy at 7:03 AM
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