Supercharged Emotions

We say in addictions that drugs are to be thought of as the equivelant of superpowered emotions. Yet right now i feel worse than if i had been on a 4 day meth binge, i have never in my life felt this tired, worthless, and unwilling to go on. Even now, i feel like it would be so much better to just crawl into bed and die, i cant even walk around campus without fighting back a flood of tears, i cant sleep, i cant eat, i cant think,

maybe the action itself was the suicide and this is all just the fallout, slow acting poison