Love like Blood

I dont know what im doing anymore, it feels so good, but it doesnt feel RIGHT anymore, but i cant deny that id hold her forever if i had the chance to. So what does that all mean, it feels like theres some deeper meaning just beyond my fingertips. But maybe thats just it, i want whats beyond my grasp. Its almost impossible to say that i can find someone else, at the time of course, when i touch her skin its like volts running through my body, i havent felt that before and i dont imagine its easy to find, but its like i should say, GO TRY! if you find it then you know whats true. But thats not an option, one cant have a control in life, which is horrible, i need scientific accuracy in my life.