It seems that after a relapse would be the most appropriate time to update, although relapse comes with the connotations of everything getting out of your control and being a victim of your addiction. I directly ignored all warning signs and continued to assume I was in control of a situation that I really was not. I wonder if that’s how everyone else does it. It’s amazing how horrible I feel now, and yet just a few days ago I was thinking I could feel so much better than this. We could just say I got bored, and that would probably be the most correct assumption. But If I can’t handle boredom, I’m not going to get very far.